My Angel Babies

For my Boys

I carry your heart with me, I carry it in my heart and I’m never without it. Anywhere I go, you go, my dear. And whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling. I fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet. I want no world more beautiful, you are my world my true. It’s you or whatever a moon has always meant, whatever a sun will always sing is you.

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud. The sky of the tree called life, which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.

~ee cummings



This is my wish for you. Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, hugs when spirits sag, sunsets to warm your heart, friendships to brighten your being, beauty for your eyes to see, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, patience to accept the truth, courage to know yourself, love to complete your life. ~Anonymous

My Angel Babies, Thoughts


Today the boys would have been 8 months old. I can’t adult today. I just can’t. I miss them so much. I wish I lived in an alternate universe where the surgery worked and my water didn’t break. Also, my Gammy passed away 8 years ago today. Hard to believe that much time has gone by.

To be honest…Feeling like shit today.


The Book of My Dreams

I had a wild dream last night. I actually had an entire book plot in my dream. It was crazy. I need to get it down ASAP!

I’m not even into dystopian novels, but this was clearly dystopian and clearly came from another place. No idea how I would dream up such a crazy story. But I did!

So today, I am working from home because I am actually locked out of my work computer! What in the world! So much for planning today. Guess I’ll just have to go with the flow and work on my home Mac and maybe type up pieces of my dream.

Happy Thoughts

A New Year

2016. It sounds so weird! I think I am still stuck somewhere in the 90s.

A new year brings a new perspective.

A fresh start.

A clean slate.


All good things. All things that I need.

Here is to a happy and healthy 2016!

*It’s already started to be amazing. I am going to be an Auntie again to another little sweetie in August. I love my niece SO much and am so excited for another niece or nephew.

UPDATE: It’s a boy!  Hudson Lewis is due on August 9th. Can’t wait to welcome another precious baby into my arms. I wish his cousins were here to play with. But they aren’t. Still blessed.


Honey Cayenne Whisky Tea

I have had a cold forever. I have taken tons of OTC medications, nothing seems to help much. My brother and I discussed and came up with what we think is a brilliant cold drink for adults: Honey Cayenne Whisky Tea

Can drink cold or hot. I think I’d prefer hot.

Here is our plan:

Maker’s Mark


Cayenne Pepper


Teabags of choice

I plan to make tonight and will post a picture then. I’m pretty sure it will help me sleep better too!