I am feeling very uneasy today. Between recent attacks, an ISIS supporter attempting to buy guns in Chantilly (way too close to home) and the recent MURDERS of innocent people by police, our world is in turmoil. And it is disheartening.

Today on the social network for my neighborhood, it was brought to my attention that the area behind my house that is under construction is being used for Satanic rituals, drugs, and sex. There were photos posted of the drawings on the new concrete, baggies for drugs, and used condoms everywhere. This is IN my neighborhood, where we decided to move because we felt safe. This is where I go to walk, jog, contemplate life. A safe, beautiful place to relax and unwind. No longer.

I feel like not only our world is under attack, but my smaller world is under attack as well. We moved because I felt like the place I grew up was safe. It felt like a great place to raise kids.

Once again, world flipped upside down. We lost our twins 3 hours after birth. I think of what things would be like if they were actually here, and I find myself actually THANKFUL that they don’t have to deal with the awful things going on here. What kind of world is this when I am not sure I even want to bring children into a world that is such disarray.

It’s getting ridiculous. Today I feel sad, unsafe, and burdened by the troubles of the world. We all need prayers.